It’s the end of the day, both kids are finally asleep (I hope) and as I make my decent to my bedroom I pass a half folded basket of laundry, a pile of stuff I intended to put away, notes for a newsletter that was suppose to be sent days ago, and I can’t help feeling a bit of disparity, guilt, and failure. How does it happen? At the end of every day I walk around reminded of how I can’t seem to get anything completely done. I say “yes it will be done on x date” and then that date comes and goes and some how that task never even crossed my mind, allowing yet one more thing to fall between the cracks.
It can’t be this hard. I am my own worst enemy. I HATE being late. Yes, hate is a strong word and I mean it. I feel the rage (yes rage) when I have to rush to something I inevitably am going to be late to. I feel the guilt at plopping my daughter down in front of the TV (again) to complete whatever it is I am trying to do. The sensation of failing to do it all.
This is usually the spot where some one will chime in and say “The dishes can wait!” or “You just had a baby” or some other line in effort to console these crushing feelings. But that’s not the point. The point of all of this is– I am good at what I do. Very good at what I do in fact. I feel like I run around all day busting ass and at the end have nothing to show for it except these unfinished things.
My husband (most of you have met Adam by now) and I ended up in an argument a few weeks ago because we both were feeling unappreciated by the other person. Funny thing is, we both thought we were doing a damn good job of showing the other just that. Because we do appreciate each other, very much even. This was just one more thing that I’m putting time and energy forth and realistically not doing it “right.”
THERE HAS TO BE A BETTER WAY.
I’m sick of feeling like a failure. I’m tired of feeling guilty. I’m done feeling like it can’t all be done, because realistically I think it can. I am more than capable to accomplish what needs to be completed and need a better attack at how to make it happen.
This is where this challenge came from. Because the more people I share my story with the more people have opened up and explained they are fighting the same fight. Feeling the same feelings. From all of these stories, I have designed a strategy to optimize our efficiency and organization in our personal fitness, at home and in relationships.
Accept the challenge and let’s STOP being our own worst enemy.
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